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Not long ago, I became a youth minister. I am young, inexperienced, and given to thoughts of idealism.

I decided that I would write about what it’s like being a young, green, youth minister. I never want to forget how it feels to not know the answers. I never want to lose what it’s like to be totally out there, without any clue what in the world I’m doing. I don’t want to forget this.

Because at some level, I think this might be how a lot of ministers feel. Sometimes these feelings give way to a sense of failure. And sometimes, maybe often times, it’s true. We are failing. But at least we’re trying.

I don’t think it’s any coincidence that people who have dedicated their lives to full-time, vocational ministry, often feel like they’re failing. I mean, one could argue that this could be the most important, heaviest, most dangerous work in the universe. It’s no wonder that failure, frustration, and pain are our constant companions. Is it?

In many ways, I think this is where God wants us to be. Because he uses us in our weakness.

I guess you could say that I am writing this for all ministers everywhere who’ve ever felt this way, but mostly, I’m just writing it for myself. To stay sane. To see more clearly the path that God is leading me on.

This blog is a attempt at not foregetting–or maybe it’s a practice in remembering–how it feels to be completely inadequate.